It has been a month since you passed away and I really thought it would get easier, but for me it gets harder each day, knowing that we will never see you again. Everyday something happens that reminds me of you. Whether it is a song, a food, something the kids say, a phrase or just something I see that triggers a memory of you. Then I can't help but be sad about all the things that you will miss seeing and expierence with me, Ralph and the kids. The holidays are coming up and that was a time that you loved, because the whole family was together and it was never dull!! Our lives will never be the same and that is hard for me to grasp. I have gone through so many emotions over the last month, sadness, anger, guilt and so many more I don't even know how to describe. I know from my personal faith that one day we will all be together walking the streets of gold and it says we will dance and rejoice, so maybe we will finally get to see you do that jitterbug that mom always begged for!! That I can't wait for!! Until then I will miss you dearly and my life will never be the same. I love you and my only comfort in all of this, is knowing that you are no longer in pain, that you are fully restored, physically, mentally and emotionally. Your passing has caused a great void in my life, that no one will ever replace and my children talk about their memories of you everday. I am thankful that they are old enough that they have great memories of their paw paw and that they remember you before you got sick and depressed, because that is the paw paw they knew and loved and will always miss. Keep a watch over us from above!!